I am grateful...

I should set aside my predicaments and be grateful with these people.

Let's start with THEA

What I loooove most about this girl is her innocence *HAHAHA (parang hindi naman). Siguro kasi kung humirit sya eh napaka inosente pa. Basta ako lang nakaka intindi nun! Pero seriously, I am grateful because she's a nice person. Kahit anlayo ng ugali namen (before?) we were able to meet and be friends. I'm just happy that I have a friend like her. Super enjoy ang company. Nasasakyan ang kabaliwan ko at kung anu pa man. At dahil kanina, she listened to me and even gave moral support sa promotions namen. Small thing, pero something I appreciated much :)

Emo moment. *nyay!

Solid college friend ko 'tong si Thea. Eh panu ba naman almost 4years na ang aming relasyon (mmmm, friendship I mean!). We've been in a number of cat fights na rin. I guess that would attest why we're like what we are right now. Sooooo ayun, hugs for Thea! <3 style="font-weight: bold;">and then... si LUCETTE


eto, serious kung tignan at first pero hindi pala talaga. Panu ba? she's very neutral I guess. Panung neutral? Hmmm, tipong parang steady lang lagi. Tipong akala mo okei lang pero naiinis na sya sa totoo lang? HAHA I am grateful because she's like my neutralizer. She reminds of the word balance. Because of her, I actually get to think na maghinayhinay sa mga bagay. Basta ako na lang din nakakaintindi dito. HAHAHA

Like thea, solid college friend ko rin 'to. She always have the ear for my chikas and tsismis. She knows how to handle me. *HAHAHA

I wish her luck sa pag aalaga nya sa ate nya :))


sige sama na naten si MARA *lol

Grateful ako kasi this girl really listen. As in literally! *HAHA tipong kaw lang yung kwento ng kwento-okei kasi nga you can share a lot of things sa kanya and you'll be assured na safe sa kanya kung anu man yun HAHA. She's very supportive at talaga naman friend kung friend. HAHA aagree yan sayo when you tell her na galit ka ke ganito or ke ganyan. *HAHAHA ayos di ba? at kung solid lang ang usapan, SOLID na solid 'to! Imagine mula 1st year hanggang ngayon, solid blockmates kami! malas. HAHAHAHA

Sabit lang minsan.

Yup, ilang beses na syang gumawa ng mga bagay na talaga naman kaloka! Ewan ko ba sa kanya bat sya ganun. HAHAHA Pero kahit na ganun, wow I'm grateful knowing her. *ayeeee joke lang yung part na 'to!



So yan... teka pahabol!

Si CARA

Sinama ko na sya. Dahil kanina ay ang epal epal nya. Pauso nya ang tawag na Zandy saken. Hayup. Hay anywei, I'm grateful (sige na nga HAHA) to work with her at maging tropa tropa nya. Muka lang syang ewan pero infairness me mapupulot ka sa kanya. She's tough. Ewan ko kung ganun na sya talaga even before ko pa sya makilala or yun lang trip nyang i-portray na image *HAHAHA pero ayun nga, I'm grateful 'coz she's very dedicated to work. Tsaka super talagang walang arte sa katawan. Siguro sya lang ang taong nakilala kung ganyan so far. Walang keme kahit dugyot na sya eh (HAHA jokes) Basta yung literal na walang arte yun na yun. At dahil she knows how to listen, di na ko nahihiya mag open sa kanya ng kung anu ano. Isa sya sa mga taong ka-momentan ko HAHA

So sana eh maging successful sya sa pag handle ng org. *evil laugh* kala mo ah, ang hyper mo lagi ah. Abang abang ka! :))

THESIS is the Shit! (Part 2)

Thursday- Econ students' Thesis Day. Meaning, the whole day was set just for thesis writing. No classes. It's all about thesis. Thesis shit!

So I slept suuuper late last night right. I think around 2am. And yeah your right, it's because of that shit. Still, no light for me. I was not able to get any topic. Failure. So today, when I opened my eyes I promised to myself that by the end of the day I would have the topic and start researching and reading journals. But guess what? Failure.

Now I have an early detection of STRESS. Really not good.

I have lots of things to do pa naman. Especially to my org, EcoSoc. I don't want to feel and think too much about the burdens. I just can't accept the fact that as early as now (imagine it's like what, first week of school) and I'm like this. Horrible. *sigh*

THESIS is the Shit!

Desktop Clock says, it's 12:40am...

turned on this computer at around 8:30pm

I am looking, researching for a NEW topic for my thesis, bloody thesis. Fuck! And found nothing! Fuck again! My brain won't work either! Terrible.

Our thesis writing started last sem (2nd sem of junior year). Supposedly by this time we have revised our Chapters 1-3 and will start with the next chapters. But because of some kind of a black, uncleared and bad luck with my thesis partner... we decided to part ways by the end of last sem. BIG DISASTER.

I dunno where or who should be blamed for this. My biggest concern now is to find a TOPIC and start writing immediately or else I'll be dead for sure. I'll be dead.

How I wish someone (some kind of a superhero) would come and HELP me. Yeah I know! That's not possible. Hey! It all depends on you now bitch! AHHHHHH!

HAHAHAHA. Did I just laugh?! Damn. I cannot find any answer so now I'm just blogging about it. What a great thing to do! Hay. Taena. I'm feeling stressed now. Seriously.

BFF, Where are U?

It's been a while since I last saw my best friend, Carla. We also haven't text one another for some time now. I guess this is the longest time we didn't keep in touch. And you know it sucks! I mean what for we call each other "best friends" if we're like this. I sent her text messages a couple of times but I got no reply- at all! So now, I don't know. I am disappointed I think. I get it if she's busy doing much school stuff but can't she spend like a minute to text and ask how am I doing? Arrgghh. I am not mad at her. I'm just disappointed. Those two are different right?

I miss her.

We're not like the old us. We missed a lot of news, stories and updates between ourselves. Well, I wonder... If we don't get to do things typical BFF does, are we still considered besties?

I've known her since we were in grade 5. So that makes our friendship like around 8 years now. Wow! In about two years it'll be a decade. Imagine that. Then suddenly we don't hear any from each other. SADNESS.

But then, she's still my girl, my dear BFF :) no matter what. I just hope she’ll have more ways to spend time with me. After all, I know we can always count on each other. (:

*I wrote this on a piece of paper first before typing it in here. After writing, I sent her a message but still she did not reply.

Laziness Summer Free

Big OKEI! *smiles* I was just chatting with my co-intern kanina... eh parang wala naman pupuntahan yung usapan namen so I decided to sign-out na lang. HAHA (magets mo kaya na ikaw ang tinutukoy ko? HAHA)

Tapos wala akong ibang magawa ngayon. Medyo saturated na ko sa Facebooking eh. HAHA I'm all alone here (again) then suddenly this idea of writing just popped into my head and da-dan!

Let me share my internship story to you.

It all started when I went to the main office of Social Security System (SSS). My intention was to inquire about their on-the-job training then just found out that they don't give allowance among their trainees. So parang napaatras ako bigla HAHA. Panu ba naman, we don't really have to undergo OJTs kasi nga di kame required, wala sa curriculum namen. So you might ask, bakit pa ko nag-inquire? Well, since our batch (in my opinion) is a competitive one, almost everyone wants to have their OJTs. People I know from marketing even say, "Eh yun naman pala di kayo required.." Eh ewan ko ba, parang exciting kasi HAHAHA. At yung closest ECO friends ko applied din for OJTs sa different companies. That's when I decided to apply na din. (parang bandwagon effect?). Pero syempre, I need a job that would give a "win-win situation". *evil laugh* Good thing, that guy (HAHA) told me about their Government Internship Program (GIP/Kabataan2000). Try ko raw tanung sa HR. So syempre bibong-bibo naman akong pumunta sa HR. Sabi nung napagtanungan ko, di pa raw naa-approve sabay abot saken ng papel na may contact # nila. Check ko na lang raw pag na-approve na. Days passed and I was feeling lazy na. I was saying to myself na wag na lang, katamad naman eh (see how lazy I am! HAHA) Buti na lang, when I was about to stop looking for a job na, there was this voice (naks!) telling me to call SSS at ayun I'm on the run ulit.

Okei. Let's take a fast forward!

So from that call, I ended up submitting the requirements then passed the interview and got the internship. (What a blast actually. Sa dame pala naman ng nag apply eh swerte na makuha ako.)

FIRST DAY is like HELL!
After the orientation, work officially started. Masaya kasi andame namen nalagay sa isang department (kame nga lang yung ganun kadami ata). Madali lang naman ang trabaho- 1.tanggalin ang staple 2. i-sort 3. i-staple ang mga na sort (again and again and again). Pero the moment I sat and start working bigla akong nalungkot. Naisip ko, OMG I am really gonna work here for almost a month. That sucks! How am I gonna learn new stuff if I'm stuck here doing some sorting?! Oh di ba? Such a loser. Tapos for some weird reason, naisip ko si Mam Racho bigla. Perhaps because I recalled her article sa Commerce journal. It was stated there why she ended up being a professor- kasi mas matututo raw sya dun kesa sa desk job. Eh since one of my goal is to become a professor, does it mean I don't want a desk job anymore? Na bother talaga ko dun. Pero eventually nawala rin 'to sa isip ko. Siguro it was a first day syndrome lang for me.

Punta naman tayo sa mga taong nakasama ko. Sabi ko nga, first day was like hell for me. Ewan ko, I felt like these people aren't my crowd. They seem so different. Weird pero grabe there's something I can't even explain why.

And lastly, it was more like hell because when I got home I had major pain all over my body. What a day!

Fast forward again!

Syempre, in a new environment you take time to adapt. Eventually you'll learn how to enjoy what your doing, mingle with the new faces and be immune from any ouch moments. :) Habang tumatagal eh mas na-eenjoy namen lahat ang trabaho. Mas masaya kasi sa lugar namen eh puro tawanan. Kwela.

It was a WONDERFUL experience.
It taught me a lot.
I learned that:
-in the "real world" competition really exist. you have to be competitive to land a job.
-doing the actual work is not easy. you have to be physically, mentally and emotionally prepared.
-patience is really a key in anything or whatever you do
-earning your own money is very rewarding yet makes you a kuripot
-the quality of your work really counts
-relationship with the people you work with is very important

Speaking of the people I worked with, I want to thank all of you guys for that fantastic experience.


To our ATE/NANAY Edith
To our KUYA Oliver
To my co interns:
Glenn
Mimi
Arman
Regina
Beverly
Melvin
Rosie
Jean
Lloyd
Cristina
Raymond
Camille
Khaye
Irene
Gigi
Riegen
Mary Grace
Renan
Erika
Take Care guys! I'm gonna miss you.

xoxo
Sandra

WALA! WALA! Wala naman kaming mapapala

This is a LATE post. I wrote this one last April 19.

Higit kumulang 13 buwan na lang at mararanasan ko na ang isang napaka-importanteng KARAPATAN at RESPONSIBILIDAD ng isang PINOY----ang BUMOTO. Tama. Isa na kong parte ng lipunan kung saan makikiisa ako sa pagbuo ng bagong PANGARAP at ADHIKA hindi lamang para sa ating GOBYERNO pero para sa kapakanan ng buong PILIPINAS.

Wala! Wala! Wala!

Kung iisipin, medyo MAAGA pa para talakayin ang ganitong isyu. Pero hindi niyo naman ako masisisi. Dahil ganito pa lang din kaaga eh makikita mo na ang pagpaparamdam ng mga nais tumakbo. Hindi ko nga napigilin tumawa nung una kong nakita ang mga PULITIKO at ang kanilang DRAMA. Isa sa mga tumatak sa akin ay ang PEDICAB-inspired na ad ni MR.WET MARKET. Grabe, worst talaga. Ang pangit pa ng pagkabato ng linya. It was nothing but a STEREOTYPE election ad! Ganyan naman lagi, ginagamit ang MAHIHIRAP. Tigilan niyo na yan, PLS.

Wala! Wala! Wala!

Sa ganitong panahon, normal na saken ang matulog na ng umaga. Karaniwan nanunuod lang ako ng tv magdamag. Nung isang gabi, palipat-lipat lang ako ng channel siguro dahil gusto na talaga ng isip kong matulog pero ewan ko ba kung bakit ayaw matulog ng sarili ko.

So ayun, nahinto ako sa pag-pindot ng remote sa myx. Sakto naman myx premiere, may bagong labas na video ang KAMIKAZEE. Isa sa mga local bands fave ko ‘to.

Wala! Wala! Wala!

Tamang ‘tama’ lang kasi sila. Makulit, magulo at maingay ang musika. Matagal tagal na rin yung huling rinig ko sa ingay nila. MARTYR NIEBERA pa ata yung huling kantang napakinggan ko eh. Kaya naman, laking gulat ko sa mensahe ng latest song nila. Iba.


Title: WALA
Napanood sa telebisyon
Inuuto ang neysion
Na-meet daw ekspekteysyon
Sa kanyang imagineysyon

Wala nangyari, wala namang nagbago
Parehong kwento, sino ba ang niloloko mo

Chorus:
Wala namang kaming napala
Wala! (4x)
Meron pa bang naniniwala
Wala! (4x)
Wala ka namang kasing nagawa
Wala! (4x)
Wala na sayong naniniwala

Sabi mo merong solusyon
Paberti at mas starbeysion
Nabawasan daw konsomisyon
Dis kol por a selebrasyon

Pero walang nangyari, walang nagbago
Parehong kwento, sino ba ang niloloko mo

(Repeat Chorus)

Speech:
Mga mahal kong kababayan
Sa panahon ng aking panunungkulan
Katakutakot na kurakot ang inyong maaasahan
Paliliguan ko kayo ng sandamakmak na kasinungalingan
At sa lahat ng sa akin ay bumoto
Ano kayo, hilo? ako muna bago kayo
At sa kabila ng lahat
May makikitang ngiti sa ating mukha
Na parang walang naganap
At sa akin ang huling halakhak!

Pu***g ina nio hahaha

Wala namang kaming napala
Wala! (4x)
Lalo lang lumalala

Wala ka namang kasing nagawa
Wala! (4x)
Wala na sayong naniniwala
Wala! (8x)

Bakit di ka pa mawala! (3x)

Soooooo TRUE! Hindi ko man akalain, pero ang inakala kong puro kulit at ingay na banda tulad ng Kamikazee ay makakagawa ng MALUPET na kanta. Apir tayo dyan!
Tagos ang mensahe nito saken. Musika ng KATOTOHANAN. Sumasalamin sa paulit-ulit na tsubibo ng kalagayan ng ating LIPUNAN.

Wala! Wala! Wala!

Masisisi niyo ba ang tulad ko kung sa ganito kaaga eh prinoproblema ko na kung SINO ang TAPAT na MAGLILINGKOD? Eh sa simula pa lang na magka-isip ako tungkol sa pulitika at BAYAN--- Walang Nangyari.. Walang nagbago… Hindi
ako nawawalan ng pag-asa, nawawalan lamang po ng TIWALA. Mahirap nga naman na ibigay pa ito lalo na’t sa mga PAKITANG TAO lamang. Tuloy ang PAG-ASA ko, na sa kumpol ng mga kawani ay may ilang tunay ang hangarin. Alam kong hindi ito MADALI pero alam ko, kaya at kakayanin natin ito.
Walang nangyari… Walang Nagbago… Wala na nga bang IBA sa inyo??

Quality time with Mama

Yesterday, my mom and I had a conversation. Once in a while we have this tsismisan time which is actually our quality time together. So why I'm writing about it? Hmm, probably because it was a different conversation. We actually talked about my love life (well it was not the first time we discussed it). The difference is that, she told me of her approval of me having a relationship. And this is actually the formal consent of her. It’s funny pa when I told her that I’m not really that conscious when it comes on having a boyfriend. And I quote her, “Dapat ngayong 4th year magka-boyfriend ka na. Kasi pagkatapos mo wala ka na masyadong makikilala kasi hindi ka naman mahilig lumabas..”. I answered her, “Hindi yan, minsan naman lumalabas ako. Tsaka sa trabaho, yung mga kasabayan kong fresh grad..”. Wala lang, I found this uncommon ‘coz my mom is like the “old school” parent (I can open anything to her though). It just felt like, there are pressures on me now *HAHA. Eh siguro it’s because my mom thinks that I never had an experience when it comes to love and relationship. Syempre, when I was in high school I had to keep it a secret and until my college ‘coz the fact that she always remind me that I should finish studies first implicates that she’s not allowing me. So she doesn’t have any idea pala. But actually, I make some kwento naman before about the guys who courted me eh (wow, do I sound conyo here? *HAHA). I thought she understands my figurative words pero hindi pala *HAHAHA. So ayun, because of that converse, I end up realizing that I don't really give much attention to my lablyp. Eh I don't know, but I'm the patient type (naks!). I'm not looking for it, ‘coz I know it’ll come.